見賢思齊

It was a crazy Thursday where our usual date at Feeling Cafe was full of fun and happiness. I was late when I reached there and I was immediately served with a bottle of Carlsberg. I can't run away with it, and I definitely need alcohol at that moment, so I just took it and drink. There were already 2 buckets on the table and the other side was kinda fast gulping down the 5 bottles.

Well, jokings and chatting about Lembing trip was going on and on. Suddenly realise that freaked me out when they start refilling the buckets on our table. Who's going to finish them off? And I bet they are going to start asking questions all over the table. Wow! I can't remember what how many buckets we had last night. I just knew that when I was being asked questions when I started my third bottle. I'm not going to mention any details here, but it is definitely relationship topic. They expect me to get drunk and tell them everything. Nyek nyek nyek~

To my relief, somethings went clear suddenly. As said, grab the chances while you can, else you will regret when you looked back.

When I got back to my seat, I realised my head is heavy and my feets are light. When I actually settled down, I saw someone was not right. Ya, I needed to be by her side. I can feel her holding my hands tightly, like thousand words to be said, but nothing came out, only the strength of grasp. All I can do is grab her hands tightly, to give her my support. I hope she knew that.

It was actually some kind of crazy, sad, full-of-questions night. But we all actually enjoyed it, that's the main point right? I don't know what trigger the happy hour to happen but it's always good to have this bunch of friends around. Cheers, friend!

怪自己未能及时阻止你

阻止你一脚两船

看着你陷入这种困境

我感觉无能为力

若能及早给你一些劝告

也许事情就不会到了这种地步

只是不明白

为何到现在你还不肯对他坦白

是你还没准备好？

还是你终究打算隐瞒？

我该说的都说了

接下来是看你自己怎么做

一时的错误、一时的念头

造成了现在的局面

坦诚吧～

I know everyone lies, including me.

究竟是我太在乎，還是我自尋苦惱？

我不知該如何說起，也無從說起。

從何時開始 ？說真的，我真的不清楚！

我每天必須徘徊於中間人的角色，屢試不爽。

我也是人，我也會累。

我不想每次為了遷就別人的感受而讓我自己更辛苦。

朋友說：其實你不需要太在乎，辛苦的只是你自己。

所以我要學會自私一點，

人不為己，天誅地滅！

學會了不去在乎，就不用再流眼淚，心不會痛。

I've been hanging around here quite often, because I don't feel like speaking it out, so I will just write it down. I've been thinking much recently, about work, about life, about money, about travel... That's our LIFE, right?

Everyone encounters problem with work, so do I. I don't have any dissatisfaction with this job, I'm just standing in between again. That day my leader was telling me about the performance goal thing. I feel kinda pressured when it was discussed out. Especially the TEAMwork part, I don't know, he did hint that we must help out among ourselves. Yup, I get what he means, but I'm just a newbie, do you think I can do all that by myself? I still have to consider about the feeling of my South Asia's senior. I know I can help out, but sometimes don't you think it's kinda unfair for him to pass around his work? Seems like I'm taking care of every other people's feeling except for myself. Work smart....Well, I guess I have to bear with it. Other than this, I'm enjoying my work.

[Zi, after talking to you about it, I felt much better. Thanks for the time :)] [Thanks for the time at FEELING, the guy is superb!]

Work... then comes money...

I wish that I had the money then I don't need to work and can do whatever I want to. Loan loan loan, everything is money, where you have to pay it back. The house, it's for the sake of yourself and your parents. Duh.. I know, just I will have to earn hard and save hard for my entertainment then. LIFE is really hard, money is everything. My back is aching, with all the burden on my back. I'm depressed, with all the pressure I have now. But I won't be depressed for 30 years... so WORK SMART and SAVE HARD!

Travel wise, ya, I'm going to Hong Kong soon. Then what do you have to talk about it? Hmm.. Itineary is done by me, I'm pretty afraid I screwed up everything. That scares the freak out of me and I guess I'm having nightmares about it. Travelling is a fun thing and another way to release my tension. I think it will be my last trip because I need to save very very hard for next year's trip. Well, let's hope that there's a raise after my probation on july later.

Did I miss something? Relationship? Nah~~ I will keep hoping and hoping but I won't force it to happen. What's destined for me will be mine anyway.

p/s: I will enjoy my trip at Hong Kong. Be back in a week~~

Our CEO held an emergency meeting today at 10am. Although we join the web conference but we heard nothing except 'blup... old newspaper, old newspaper... (giggle)...'

After lunch, we receive an email stating what the whole meeting was all about

The whole reorganisation of NZ and Australia Wolters Kluwer..

OMG! They are firing few editors and all indexers there. (This makes me worry about my job here) They are setting up another team here and adding 8 headcounts to our indexer team. They said they were making this changes to fulfill the goals they have set for 2011.

Wow! That's a big change! We didn't even expect any of this to happen. It was like a shocking news to us. My team leader was in shock when he heard it and we didn't manage to join the meeting which was too sudden. As a result of the reorganisation, we no longer report to Australia. We are reporting to the General Manager in Cyberjaya.

Hmm.. All I concern about is:

Are we moving to Cyberjaya?

My leader said for this six months, we are staying here. After that, we will have to see then. It means there are still possibilities of moving. Sigh~ Gotta be prepared with it. I know, I know...

I have all the loans in my hand to pay and my mouth to feed, so let's hope everything will be fine.

And Pray for Japan^^

#Nowplaying- Home by Westlife

Upon starting this new job, I'm starting to get in touch with some 'pro' stuff

such as accounting and tax content, law and legislation, HR stuff.

Among all these fields, the easiest would be HR.

Recently encountering with Mr Law and Legislation gives me a pain in my head.

Reading through those cases and finding an keyword to index them,

argh~ I didn't expect to be so difficult.

(Or is it I couldn't really concentrate on them?)

My challenges:

1) Professional jargon

They don't know me, I don't know them as well. BLur~

 2) Group the legislation

Still in the learning process of grouping them. BlUr~

 3) Finding the keywords

Hmm.. It's a hard time reading through them.

Now I've concluded all, I know where my weaknesses are.

Time to learn and get rid of them.

Mr Law and Legislation,

Wait and see!

人與人之間的關係

是簡單還是複雜？

家人、朋友、情侶、夫妻、同事

相處之道/人與人之間的關係

的確是一門很深的學問

也許我永遠也學不會

但是自己卻傷痕累累

也許我在乎的是那一份感情

人家說重感情的人會受傷

N月前，因為朋友aka同事的事件

我在深夜時分痛哭失聲

事後，我選擇漠視她

現在同樣的也是同事

導致我在上班時間

眼淚差點奪眶而出

可以不在乎嗎？

我也想做到

很想、很想。。。

Dream, it appears in most of my nights recently.

What does it mean?

Oh god, I have tonnes of s*** in my mind then.

Dream, that's the main factor bothering my sleep recently.

Time to clear them off and MOVE ON~

And Im not going to tell what I've dreamt of. :P

The story begins:

ABC are good friends. A and C are couples, now when A and C broke up, C comes after B. B and C like each other but they didn't started the relationship. It's the friendship between A and B that bothers her. So she'd rather give it up.

If you were in her shoes, what would you do?

My friend came asking me about this, to give her comments. I didn't know that she and the guy has reached to this stage. The problem is I don't even know how the guy feels.

I felt that my friend had fall for him. The question that bothers me here is: she asked if her family and friends(including me) could accept this if they really make it? Come on, I'm kinda speechless in this. I mean I have never been through this, I can't give her advice.

As a friend, I don't want her to get hurt as I am sure that guy still has his EX in his mind. Falling for him means you will get hurt in the end. Sometimes, it's just so hard to tell these words out when she is really in love. I felt useless when I can't give her a piece of advice.

I admit that love is blind and there is nothing wrong with it. It's the morale problem which it seems like making her the third person that interfere THEIR relationship. The society will make you look like the b**** and at the same time, you are in love with him.

Hmm.. Frankly, I don't know how to deal with this. I got no advice for her on this. So........ LET IT BE~

With the disasters happening around us, I'm definitely thinking that 2012- the end of the world could be true.

What are you going to do if 2012 is real? Who knows?

I don't know, I'm not sure my whereabouts when the last day is here.

Now all my mind is thinking about trips, plans, outings, plays. I guess I'm going to enjoy to the fullest before the day comes.

Don't you want to be with your family and loved ones when it is here?

Yup, I'd definitely love to. But think deeper, this date is uncertain. You might be with your colleagues, strangers, or luckily your family around you when it comes.

We were discussing about New Zealand during the lunch today. The bungee jump and the adventurous activities make me wanna be there to experience it.

My dream is always to travel around the world. And look at the different side of the world. Too bad I haven't got the chance to fulfill even 10%. Work hard, save hard, travel hard<----could this be my motto?

Of course, before the end, I would like to love someone and being loved.

"When the right moment arrives, you will naturally find the 'pearl' you have been seeking for."

In the mean time, I shall enjoy my single life.

No matter how, appreciate what we have now and enjoy life.